3 Core Finals in 3 Days

So it's over, the last of my core module final exams, running consecutively since wednesday.

EE2011, EE2004, then EE2005.

I must say today was the best day, I actually felt good about myself. Though I answered only slightly more than 50% of the total number of questions, I was quite satisfied, because at least I am sure I have got the required knowledge of the module, and can concentrate on the advanced aspect later during the holidays, shouldn't be too difficult

EE2011 was a pain, the first question was so...gah... I think the lecturer likes coaxial cables, the question looked like something slightly complex yet easily solvable, but after a few unsuccessful attempts, I decided to move on. The question was somehow twisted in a way that, erm, is so twisted. No hope there. I think I answered about 50% of the questions in that paper though.

EE2004 was the worse, I only managed about 40% of the total marks, so I guess that will be somewhere near a C.

Ah, I guess I will have to take this as a lesson for future semesters, to keep up with lectures and tutorials, and constantly feel the stress and study throughout the semester.

And not get involved in exhausting emotional journeys that totally make studying impossible. But then again, is that a matter of choice?

Ah, it's also in this very "exciting" and mortally stressful time that I come to realise how blessed I am to have good friends being so concerned. I underestimated my friends, felt so sorry...

I miss home, I need to de-stress... 3 core modules back to back can really stress me out...

But I thank God for how I fare in the exam all the same.

Looking forward to Marketing and GEM next week!

2 days from first exam

Argh... So little time, so much to study, and I really need to change my sleep pattern...

I don't know what to do already, there is still so much to study, so little time, and my exams are just round the corner. Study whole night in McD yesterday, was quite fruitful, apart from the fact that I was so tired I kept falling asleep. But I managed to finish one module, at least by now. But there's still 2 more to go, and I haven't wrote my formula sheet for one...

Church today was long, I somehow managed to keep awake throughout the whole sermon, at least, I think I did. I still remember what it is about, so I guess I did stay awake, though I may have miss chunks of it without knowing :p

But at least, I'm glad I actually pulled my self out of bed to go to church (with some help), else it would have been a really dry week of just studying, and feeling depressed.

Just feel like reading the psalms all the time, they are so comforting and encouraging. Argh... You know the situation is really bad when you start praying ever so often...

Anyway, it's just one more tiring week before it's all over, for the semester...

Study week begins

Just discovered Mc Donald's is the best place to study between 12am to 4am. Just don't forget to bring along a jacket.

Fries are a nice plus, especially if you ask then not to put salt, and ask for BBQ sauce or the like.

Ok, enough about food, studies is starting, although it's not quite going as fast as I expect it to be, and it's really too slow for comfort, at least it's moving.

There sre so many things up my list of to-dos, I can't really do them until exams is over, but just to get it off my mind...

• Install Stationery Pack 2.0
• Create a BD video for Alex, SY, and EH (yup, sorry Alex, but that will have to wait, meanwhile, entertain yourself with the pictures that you helped put the caption for)
• Similar to the above, learn Motion 3 and Final Cut to make the long awaited video...
• Continue working on my MacSplit program.
• Deploy Windows Server 2008 for Compcomm
• Dissect Forum Manager phpBB2
• Try out Small Basic programming from Microsoft

Wow, looks like a whole fat list! Not sure if I can get it done before I go back to Malaysia...

Meanwhile, to all the NUS students... JIAYOU!!!

Relief

Has been a hard weekend, somehow feel so exhausted emotionally, but there's a spring in the middle of the desert, now am refreshed and recovered, but somehow, the mood to study is gone. Ah, alas, seems like maybe I'll do badly this semester again. Just feel that time is so short, and there's no point rushing and mugging now....

Anyway, there was a triple birthday celebration yesterday night. Alex, Swee Yee, and Ee Hiang. As usual, let the pictures do the talking :-)

"母爱"

I was on the MRT back today, and there was a loud lady rattling to and old lady about her family. She went on and on in Mandarin about how a mother's love is the best. Sounds like a touching story, but it's actually quite the contrary. See, she was the mother, and she was talking about her love for her kids, that in itself is already quite hard on the ears, and she had to say it out LOUD.

Anyway, she said that mothers are the only ones who knows how to love their kids, while fathers only work, and sleep. And if that's not enough, they expect their wives to be understanding and listen to their complains about their job, as if one whole day of fussing over mischievous children is not enough for her.

I think she's a little bitter, or she can't forgive her husband for some reason. But then again, what she said is sometimes, quite true, in certain cases. How many Dads sincerely love their kids, spend time with their kids, being a role model to them? Did all the understanding, concern and communication died off the moment they got married? or was it even there in the first place?

Sometimes, especially in the early stages of my life, when my dad was still quite young and inexperienced, I felt that he wasn't showing me a good example too. It is so important that father show a good example in the way they treat their wives, and likewise for wives. If all a kid see is abuse, then he's gonna think "if that's the way father treats mother, now that I'm a father, I should treat my wife likewise". It even affects the way we treat members of the other gender too...

Of course, I can't just blame my dad. I can see he's sincerely learning, and improving by the day, and THAT is what I want to learn from him. But if it's not because he's always making time to spend with us, keeping communication channels opened in the house (and not letting the TV or computer flood the channel), I will never be able to see and learn the more subtle aspects of his character. As with all human nature, it's so easy to see the negative aspect of a person, but to appreciate the good sides, it takes love, understanding, and communication...

Well, if the cycle is there, how can we break it? I am still yet to be able to answer that question, but with God's help, I shall pray for God's grace to live a life in the way that gives Glory to God.

Which is really part of what I read today in my quiet time, and also very similar to what Simon talked about in BS yesterday. That we should mourn, be meek, because we know we can't live a Righteous life with our own strength. And it is in our failures that God's glory shall shine in our lives.

I think the past month have really been a failure,

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for they shall inherit the kingdom of heaven"

and I still can't get over my mourning for what I've done.

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted"

The beatitudes is really bringing me somewhere, I have read it time and again, but it has now taken on a new meaning...